My bad habits were quickly multiplying and spiraling out of control. I would have a glass (or two or three) of wine every night and have a pot of coffee to my head each morning. I thought I had everything under control. But what I didn’t realize — my problems were only multiplying. I was slowly killing my joy and motivation. I lost sight of my goals, my drive. My body was becoming toxic.
I suppose many moms go through this routine. Perhaps you can relate?
My family was suffering as a result. My career, my relationships… everything around me seemed to be dull and grey.
Even though I’ve always considered myself a happy person, and quite frankly a silly goofball at times… I knew I was missing something but I just couldn’t put my finger on it.
You know that feeling?
On my 39th birthday, I just sat back and visualized how the rest of my life would look. As much as I hate to admit it, the big 4-0 around the corner terrified me! Somehow I knew that I had to focus on what I wanted — not want I didn’t want. I wanted to be 40 lbs lighter.